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Raya Day ONE; Feeling loved (:
posted on Saturday, October 04, 2008 @ 1:26 AM | permalink
Woow-wooow-weeee (: How was your raya celebrations? Enjoyable? Exciting? Heart-racing? Mind-blowing? Eat-nonstoping? Guilty-feeling? Terfeeling-feeling. Or perhaps condemning that you cant celebrate this special occasion?! Well then there's a need to PRIORITISE. As simple as that (: Raya day one, as usual its the mum's side first. Went to Auntie Nani's at tampines to visit Grandma. She kept saying i look like mum when she was younger. Hmmm?! Mum has got loadsa siblings. I think its about 12 or 14 or so? And not to mention the other people visiting as well. Actually, i think some of them are nice but i'm not very much close to them. Strangely though, i always keep to a corner and eat the yummy food all i can. The time when me and the cousins were young, i bet we were really close but as we grow older, perhaps we all dah start to malu-malu kucing already. Hahaha! But this year's indeed a better one. Nenek Sinah actually touched my heart. I know i wasnt the greatest grandaugther but she sincerely wish me luck. And kissed my chubby cheeks. Dont all grandmas do that you thought? Well, there's this spark of happiness and sadness at the same time in her eyes. Its as though something was missing. And she's putting a facade to show that she's happy. I am very much glad that she remembered me. I felt guilty at that moment that i wasnt a very good grandaughter to her. Mind you, she's 83 this year. A very very strong lady that had gone through the world wars! I will pray for the best for her. I know she will confirm chop-chop got to heaven (: Anddd that reminds me of Datok Dollah. He passed away a verrry long time ago. When i was in kindergarten still. I remembered mum rushing to whompoa (where granparents used to live), i knew i was there. I remembered i peeped in his room when i'm not supposed to cause the adults were there. I saw him on the bed, trying hard to breathe. As though soffocating. He was having a major heart attack. I didnt know what was happenning then, nor do i understand what had happened to him. I know he's a great granpa too but i didnt much remember what was he like. Probably i could ask mum. I know he's confirm in heaven. He deserves it. I thank Allah for that. Woookey. I know, so touch the heart right? Next stop is dad's side. I live very near to my grandparents on dad's. They live on the 11th while me on the 10th. Mak (i call my grandma here mak) made big sambal prawn which is so yummy. And there's satay goreng for the day too. Aloooot ar. And for that, yes i ate alooot! I DO record it in my food journal ehh. Hehehe. Memozah and her mum was there. Not excatly all aunties and uncles lah. It seems mak isnt as happy during the rest of the rayas partly cause she didnt do much shopping for raya. I know she always made a fuss to get decorations at geylang and all. But this year, its seems something was missing. And i know its alot more than that. She yearns for Cik Zai to come, badly. Its a looong story. She's probably disappointed cause she couldnt get to visit her. But isnt it a duty of the child to do so? Its a very touchy subject, but i hope Allah will help us solve it someday. Atok seems excited cause he get to use the baju dad bought for him. Mind you, my atok has a looot of new clothes to wear but he often left it in the cupboard to rot. Andd still in its package. He says what for wear new clothes when you still have the old ones? Atok is quite a hero cause he was a sailor boy who almost got eaten by a shark! And thank God he survived! He travelled around the world and make the best yummy maggi mee! Haha, serious! And i gotta tel you this, there was this time his favourite jeans to work was badly torn and guess what... He tape it up with tapes and went back to work! Hahaha. Of cause grandma was making a fuss out of it. And guess what he did? He cut it into shorts. Hahahaha. So cute right? He's the best atok any child can get!! And look at me and my cousins, we = damn chubby lah. Atok likes to blanja us ALL the good food. I wish Mak Fatimah and Atok Madzor for more healthier, happier, cheerier and longer lasting life in their golden years. Andd for Nenek Sinah too (: Our grandparents really make alot of sacrifice lah if you noticed. Anddd after maghrib, we all went to Greatgranpa's house at Pasir Ris. Yeaaah, my atok still have his father. How cool is that?! Butt sadly, greatgrandma just passed away this year and i know she's somewhere where she deserves. Atok look mostly like her i think. The best part here is..... The sambal sotong is damn syioook lah! That dish is a must for me! Yahooooo! Overall my raya day one was better than i expected. I was wearing my other lavender baju kuruung cause saving the princessy one for sunday! That baju kurung made me look chubby xia anddd the sleeves were short sey. Alamaaak! Anyway on friday its back to school. I semangatly wore baju kurung. The pink one (: Of cause must semangat raya, its only day 3 man. Arghhh school! Exam is like next month. I seriously have gotta read up the textbooks! Social Behaviourial Studies project with 3000words, havent even started yet and we gotta hand in by next fridayyyy! And tuesday gotta hand in the smile video. Andd i think i seriously have got stage fright! I mean seriously on the stage! A stage frights me! I was practically going blank in the head for HMC's presentation. I did bad! Bloody hell, i gotta be better for the TPSW one. Pictures will be updated MOREEE in the next entry! Meanwhile, cant wait for jalan raya-ing like the family and aunties and uncles use to this SUNDAAAY! Yaaay! I know i miss out last year, but what the hecccck. This year is indeed a better year of truths and reflections (: Anddd you probably wont know what i mean but whateverrr lah eh! Anddd monday its back to gym time with Erizuraaaaa. Ehh you better update your food journal ehhh! *winks*  I made yummy cupcakes at the last minnute of raya. Yuuuumy lah of cause!  A new buddy; Afiqahh qaaah qaaaah! They say we look alike. Wait till we smile alike (: She's a jaaaap-crazy!  What else but MYSELF, taken in Afiqah's phone and send it to mine. Selaaaamt hariiie raya (: This will be a better year, believe it and believe Him. I am sooo feeling Siti Nurhaliza's Sesuci Lebaran. I likeee it alot lahhh xia (: And with that, i do hope i'm forgiven of my wrong doings. "Sesuci... di hening subuh sunyi JaNnA xD
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