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Love in my eyes <3
posted on Sunday, January 18, 2009 @ 12:08 AM | permalink
Love in my eyes. Heart shape in red. That’s the symbol that is closely related with love. What is love? It’s defined differently by the many age groups. Some people tend to avoid talking about it, ignore it and totally shut themselves away from it, while others accept love in open arms. But is love worth risking your life for? Like the love for the wild; Steve Erwin’s sudden death by a stingray. Or being to what extent do you want to risk loving someone, an individual? Like an idol? But wait a minute, don’t you just assume, love have many kinds of them. Love; for me have its many meanings. To me, being there for a friend is love. Supporting, encouraging and respecting your friends decision is love. Wearing my favourite grey top is something I love. Chewing down my parmesan oregano sandwich + tuna + lettuce + mayo + chili sauce + while cookies are something I totally love from Subway’s. Laughing and being myself is something I love to do especially with my loved ones. Seeing my atok doing ‘lame’ and just being himself; which make me laugh most of the times is something I love doing. No one can ever beat my emak’s (granny’s) chili padi + sotong hitam + asam pedas and only God knows a lot more which is oh-so-yummily-loved. I love eating kit kat chunky and Cadbury’s Twirl among all the rest of the chocolates. And of cause every girl loves ferrero rocher. There’s no doubt that I love ITE Simei’s nasi ayam goring sambal, I am missing it to the core and I so want to have a bite of it right now! I am in love with the colour orange, as you can see, my whole room’s orange and I do admit when it’s sleeping time, my room still looks bright though. Love is also like enjoying walking in the heavy rain without an umbrella and splashing the puddles of water. Indulging myself with stuff I love most is also great; in love with my guitars Dan the Man and Annabelle the Dark, my holga camera, the hot diva discman Mashashita, Aspeth the camera and its dying so I shall get a new one soon and the best mp4 player Creative Zen-xi Cullen. Even reading an awesome book on my bed without any disturbance is something I love. Even writing with the pen that you like is loved; for me I like Pilot G-TEC-C4 in blue and Uniball Signo 0.5 in blue black. What you’ve been longing to do in your life is something you’ll love to achieve; I’d want to be like Mr. Eugene Beh someday or a camera crew or a random columnist or something like that. Love is also saving the dolphins from being chopped brutally alive in Japan and certain countries. So as you can see, there are many kinds of love. You asking me how about my own experience with love?.. That kind of love is something that I don’t like to really open up to people. Because I know I sort of sucked at it. After having a massive heartache (last year), accusations, disappointment, it just made me feel useless and retarded in the head. (See I finally opened up in here) Yeah I was dumped real bad. It was pathetic and ridiculous and I just don’t get it. It was three weeks after my birthday (‘great’). I thought that this was it. I thought he wasn’t like one of those random guys and this could mean something. I thought a lot of things. I didn’t mind we were both different from the rest cause I always know at the end of the day I’ve got his back… or so I thought. I threw away everything out of my sight that reminded me of the useless feelings. That first month was really hard and slowly it gets better. Pfittz told me to numb the feelings for a while, feel nothing and indulge on myself. And I did and it felt good once again. I did some reflections and I knew I wasn’t entirely the bestest girlfriend in the world. I am not perfect and most dating books suggest that a guy would start having second thoughts when he sees an imperfection in a girl he adores. That’s just stupid instead they should just let the girl know, discuss and work it out. If she doesn’t listen then it’s her lost. But if he doesn’t even try then it’s his lost. I am getting better control of it myself. I am wookey, happier and chubbier (hehe). I can’t forget what took place. (No worries, I am pretty good in ignoring stuff) Chances are only there if you work hard for it. I didn’t say I forgive, nor do I say I don’t. Let’s just say, let’s get going on what we want to achieve in this life. Stop being guilty and start standing up for yourself for once not just sit in a corner and make people laugh at you. With this New Year, a digit 2 in your age, its time to know what you want and what you don’t want. Don’t keep that ego in the tiny heart of yours else it’ll only explode. Now that’s something that’s out of my thinking hat for quite a while now. Pheewww. Anyway Valentine’s Day is coming so couples, start getting now now baby! Hahaha! Probably I’ll request for work because at least I can see the two curly-haired boys. *winks* or perhaps a secret admirer who will send me roses and chocolates? Haah, so the berangan. But eh I do have wookey, it’s just that I ignore them. Its time to live my live not entertaining those I’m not interested in. Right? Heeh. And in relation to my ‘Love in my eyes’ entry, I’d like to dedicate my loves, hearts, colours, laughters and joy to my family and friends, you should know who you are. I’ll have a surprise for you though its exam week. *GRRR*   Random shoots last friday.   Finally this girl gets to jump! / My Cullen.  And everyone loves to get all vain (: ---------------------- “Willing to say if God forbids, In excellence foretold of which I should heed, Janna you have the life that has kicks, So it is no wonder to say that you are natively unique. Dear one to I am referring to, Which village journey to castle for I am adhering, Life is a love & so love is a life. You may dismay the dirty incest. So I let you bride the princess to be, This poem from a poet, Pictures you words to drool but not to forget, For the love of my poems, only you are willing me to beget. Let me oh let me beg, The very part of you for my part in a difficult life of yours, And just let me again & again, Smile you with my poems beautiful as it was”. From xxx JaNnA xD PS: MDIS babes, I can’t wait for bbq on 27th lah sey. Finally you guys are coming to the east. Heeeeh.
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