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Today..... ;(
posted on Friday, February 26, 2010 @ 10:49 PM | permalink
Today.Today is mum's 50th birthday. Today was also the day i receieved a shocking news. I dont know how but somehow i had a premonition that something bad was about to happen today. There was this 'mat rep' looking kid in k1 who cried so bad when i had class in this particular school. He's never cried before and probably he isnt feeling as good today cause he's head is hot. So he was crying in my arms and i felt that pain in his eyes. This was another kind of feeling, like it feels like its real. Soon later, got a call from my crying, helpless grandma that her sister just passed away this afternoon. She's in kampung and Uncle said she passed away while taking her afternoon nap. Its sad just imagining grandma crying like that. Its been a loooong time since i last went there. And grandma didnt even had the chance to visit there raya. I grew up visiting the kampung every holiday and right now it feels different. I remember fond memories with her fishing when i was a lot younger, helping her collect sea jellies, having a cup of tea at her house. Somewhere in me, i am feeling lost but i know the people closer to her feel a lot worst than me. I cant imagine how it'll be if i lose my dear ones. I didnt know the feeling of really losing someone until this day cause i am a lot older now to understand compared to my younger days. Its bittersweet memories but if that what He wants, He loves her more, then i'd respect it. I'll miss you Nek Biah. Anyhow, gotta rush to kampung tomorrow morning. You all take care and really..... if there's someone you've been missing and wanting to meet, better do so before its too late. JANNA. I listen to this version of Fade to Black by Apocalyptica when i'm sad.
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